Did you ever spend so much time searching for what you want to do that you forgot to enjoy what you actually had right in front of you? I did that very thing. And yesterday I gave myself permission to stop the search and to begin to write and to paint. It sounds crazy to have all of the time in the world to do exactly what you want to do but not know how to use and enjoy that time. But that is exactly what happened to me. Once I retired I felt I had to be as busy as I had always been. I felt that my day should be filled with important things to do and important places to go. Only I wasn't sure what that was. I am beginning to understand what others have told me. Now is the time for me to do things for me. A day spent writing or painting is a day well spent. Yesterday I gave myself permission to live in the moment and to experience what that means. I have looked, and researched, and thought about what I want to do enough for twenty people. Now is the time to stop searching and begin living and enjoying all that life has to offer.